Happy Birthday En Shin aka Small Ben!!!

Stagnant is the word for my day. What else is there out there awaiting my involvement I wonder?

Am I glad that things are going the way it is now? Now that I've have been driving in the 3rd lane, things somehow is better understood in the first lane. Do I work too fast so much so that I wanna progress faster in whatever I do? This lane somehow lets me re-think about things, rationalize and take my time in deciding, evaluating, search, compare, selection and gradually work towards what I am hoping for in the future. Am curious about my personality when it comes to carrying out objectives.

This is me... I tend to rush things as fast as possible (perhaps my first job left a scar on me due to the workload) but that didn't make things happy for me as I had never accustomed to the fact that there was bound to be something in my 'in tray'. When I did ask my senior he said "things are moving on pretty fast now, and you came in at the period where shipments are at it's peak and things will slow down eventually towards the end of the year". Yea right!!! that didn't convince me to stay on did it?

At times I think that spreading out the workload does help you pay more attention and not make silly mistakes. But I realise that I never had the patience to begin with. Once I am given a task, I make sure I'd complete it in the least given time possible (which is why I never liked reading a book). I can't be stuffed reviewing through over and over again (I mean "come on, who reads a book twice or thrice for that matter?"). But when I do catch that wave where my attentiveness is at it's peak, it's sort of like a rush where you do not want it to stop. Cause once you stop, the switch inside of you automatically sends a subliminal message to your body translating that "it's time to slow things down, besides, you have worked your mind to an overload, it's now time for a rest, take a breather, have a cuppa tea or look at some green foliages to ease your mind."

This is just me... people asking me "do you have a tidy bedroom?" and my reply "I do consider myself tidy in a way, my bedroom's tidiness varies depending on seasons". I know one's bedroom, cupboard, car or anything for that matter reflects his personality but everyone has their own system of doing things. I on one hand, tend to leave things piling up (when I'm don't have time) and clean it in one full swing. My patience does not permit me to do a little everyday and see the difference in the long run thingmajigy.

This is just me... if I were to de-weed my garden or mow the lawn, I'd like to finish it the same day itself and see the results the same day *something like those 'same day photo developing prints'*. I'd go home a sad sad boy if the weather did not permit me to do so.

This is just me... my room is considered 'neat' to many if put in comparison to others I'd say. I must also admit that there'll be days where it looks like Hurricane Ivan had just hit it but there would be reasons behind it. This is me... If I did routinely clean my room for instance once a week, I'd have to sacrifice at least 3-4 hours a week just for it. The reason being me not wanting to just stop there, I'd have this hype in me to move along to other things once I start cleaning.

Like for instance, if there was dust on my stereo, I'd wipe it. But that would lead to me armed with a piece of wet cloth looking elsewhere for potential spots that needs me to do justice with. That would lead to endless wiping, vacumming, moving things here and there, tidying belongings, vacumming, changing my sheets, tidying up my cupboard, clearing of precious belongings then deemed as junk now, emptying the bin, mopping, changing the curtains and so on. You get my interpretation don't you? There goes 7 paragraphs of 'same day' personality reviewing.

P/S: btw, and in no relations to the subject matter.. have you seen McDonalds lately? they have this machine where it loads an optimal (I'm guessing) amount of fries into a basket for ease of the workers. *that's sort of like a "Fast food working for dummies" tool*

Currently listening to: Paper bag, Fiona Apple
Am feeling: Down due to the wet weather