Regrets...ramblings on life...and regrets....
I regret not being able to take grasp of my life and control it by the horns. Been having lots of late nights, mingling and rendezvous-ing for the past 2 weeks now.
So here I sit feeling bewildered and trying to analyze what beckons my future, my happiness and my worries of not being able to sustain my hair care needs sure does questions me about what this entity (me) of God will have to carry out as his mission, tasks, goals or even fate for that matter in the path already paved by the Almighty one. Will I have to doublecross anyone in order to get somewhere in life. Is there ethics around us as we speak and give lecture to students in halls? As an ethos, if we abide to rule and regulations in ethical proportions, will others do the same in respect?
Sometimes, I just wish that the rock, meteor or WhatYaMaCallIt is on it's way to Earth and was true so that we wouldn't have to worry so much in life. Creating this countdown clock for doomsday (No! I am not in the least likely influenced by Independance Day at all). Thus minimizing our uncertainties and insecurities of what beholds of us in the distant future. I know that what I say may seem selfish, but in this world (without John Lennon) everybody capitalizes over the weaker in something. Which gives us a definite meaning to the saying "it's a dog eat dog world". If doomsday was for certain, then only we would cherish every other day as a gift and not take for granted life's current issues on famine, war, discrimination, racial political and religious sects.
Is what they show on our medium of mass communication all truth and nothing but the truth? Or is it a propoganda to many who feels the same? At the end of the day, someone definitely owns something for a reason, it rakes in profits to that respective buyer/investor. As learnt in Principles of Ethics, paying it back through charities, trusts, donations, sponsorship is just one of the ways of paying/giving back to society what they have taken from our air, land and sea. Scary enough I may sound like I hate the world so much so that I might just turn out to be a hippie, but this is one of the days where I just sit and think of what the world is today in the perspective of my five senses.
back to my regrets...here's some of it....
As I'm writing this Jonno just called, and I asked him to check out my blog whenever he could. This is the crap that I wrote while sitting here for an hour or so. "Sorry bro, a quiet night for me tonight as I think about my life.
So here I sit feeling bewildered and trying to analyze what beckons my future, my happiness and my worries of not being able to sustain my hair care needs sure does questions me about what this entity (me) of God will have to carry out as his mission, tasks, goals or even fate for that matter in the path already paved by the Almighty one. Will I have to doublecross anyone in order to get somewhere in life. Is there ethics around us as we speak and give lecture to students in halls? As an ethos, if we abide to rule and regulations in ethical proportions, will others do the same in respect?
Sometimes, I just wish that the rock, meteor or WhatYaMaCallIt is on it's way to Earth and was true so that we wouldn't have to worry so much in life. Creating this countdown clock for doomsday (No! I am not in the least likely influenced by Independance Day at all). Thus minimizing our uncertainties and insecurities of what beholds of us in the distant future. I know that what I say may seem selfish, but in this world (without John Lennon) everybody capitalizes over the weaker in something. Which gives us a definite meaning to the saying "it's a dog eat dog world". If doomsday was for certain, then only we would cherish every other day as a gift and not take for granted life's current issues on famine, war, discrimination, racial political and religious sects.
Is what they show on our medium of mass communication all truth and nothing but the truth? Or is it a propoganda to many who feels the same? At the end of the day, someone definitely owns something for a reason, it rakes in profits to that respective buyer/investor. As learnt in Principles of Ethics, paying it back through charities, trusts, donations, sponsorship is just one of the ways of paying/giving back to society what they have taken from our air, land and sea. Scary enough I may sound like I hate the world so much so that I might just turn out to be a hippie, but this is one of the days where I just sit and think of what the world is today in the perspective of my five senses.
back to my regrets...here's some of it....
- having one too many vices
not drinking more milk when i was younger
not continuing the sports i was interested in
hurting and losing the trust of good friends
losing interest and not paying attention in Mandarin classes (POL)
not sporting a short hairdo
wasting time bumming around
not able to voice my true feelings out when given the opportunity
not being outspoken enough
not spending enough time with loved ones
not being able to update my blog for the past few days =)
As I'm writing this Jonno just called, and I asked him to check out my blog whenever he could. This is the crap that I wrote while sitting here for an hour or so. "Sorry bro, a quiet night for me tonight as I think about my life.
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